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i'm at an airport called st. bartholomew's. i'm outside next to a runway, seated across from you. i know it's you, and you know it's me. but we sit quietly, never making eye contact. so instead, i draw sketches of you in my little book.. jotting down all these things i want to know about you. some important, some not.
after a while, i put my little book down and stand up. i walk away (as it turns out, where i go is not important). eventually i come back, and you are gone. and that page i was writing on is torn out.. not violently, but rather carefully.
i am being changed. i feel strangely energized. i close my eyes and am elsewhere.
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